Stillness

Originally written on June 19, 2011.

It spoke softer this time

Trying not to disturb

Whispering under the whisper

Of the branches and leaves

In the stillness of calm

Do you know me

Do you even want to

Can you care enough

More than the tree

Which shares all

Unconditionally

Roots intermingling deep

Branches and leaves touching

Catching only what it needs

Of sunlight and water

Can’t have too much

Of a good thing

The question came to me

From inside

Wanting to know and be known

Never ending discovery of self

I want the silence now

No more questions

Need to quiet the voices

Have to figure it all out

Make sense

Understand

Interpret

Decipher

The secret code

Nothing for passing go

Roll any number

You still can’t advance

Here I am before you

A living instrument

Pluck me softly

And I will sing you a tune

Pluck me hard

No idea what will come forth

Maybe a crescendo of joy

Or a staccato of pain

Polluted with the debris of life

Mixed within there is beauty

Resonant to the interested heart

I want the stillness of still

I need a better gasp of air

My world has been hit hard

Knocked off its axis

Spinning wildly

Gravity defying its own laws

As I float aimlessly

Seeking balance

Something to grab hold of

Maybe she’ll reach out

Pull me in close

Rock me to sleep

When I can’t go to sleep

Especially when I don’t want to

If I stay awake

Then I can’t

Wake up to this

There’s too much of it

No balance on the high wire

Teetering without a net

I want to open my eyes

Without needing the rain

To wash away the memories

Within my tears

Give me another moment

Glowing colors and auras

Moonbeams dancing

With the starlight

It was never about me

It was about you

Take me away from time

Into that moment

When it stood still

As we were so close

But not there

Electricity sparkling between

Suspended within the stillness

Of us