Hitchhiker

Originally written on January 25, 2010.

i really don't remember
it's all so fuzzy
how i got here
where i am now
not where i want to be
i know that
i was on the side
of the road
walking
hands moving
to and fro
with my gait
looking for a lift
for the ride
that gave me a ride
to nowhere in particular
it was all of the journey
remember the sights
the smells
flowing by the window
in slow motion
to songs so sweet
where the robin sang
while the sun shone
bright on my face
leaning on the glass
the door
warmth
heard the laughter
joyous
effervescent
true
i do remember the ride
smooth and silky
then it ended
must have been in a crash
no warning
no LOOK OUT
now i'm here
recovering
healing
licking the wounds
no one can see
that cut so deep
surviving the pain
no longer in the sun
laying off the curb
in the shadows
inside of shadows
in the bright light
that blinded me
i can't see any more
maybe couldn't see then
no feeling either
paralyzed
from the inside
out
with a wonder
why i didn't die
still need to heal
crawl again
stagger forward
my arm outstretched
hand in a loose fist
thumb out
as they pass me by
i heard it
the laughter
here i am
hitchhiking
again